What is this feeling?? It’s like a heartache, like something is going to be plucked away from me, after all these 3 years. I didn’t love her, I just liked her. It was just an infatuation, felt great when I became her friend. But though, it didn’t last long. It changed my life then on, she has changed my life. I wasn’t bad to her, I didn’t trouble her. But I don’t know why she did that to me. I trusted her like I did trust myself. She broke it, she broke me. Should I ask why?? Well I asked that, but got no answer till date. She is going to be there in the college just one more day. Will I get to see her one last time?? Will I get to talk to her one last time?? I don’t want to shout at her. I don’t want to make any trouble to her. I just want to wish her luck in her life and want to say goodbye.
I again swear I didn’t love her. It could have been like this, ‘I didn’t know I loved her.’ But is that expression a right one?? When I got in to college I didn’t think these things are going to happen to me. I never had any idea of what I’m doing now. Is this what they call fate or was it my feeling’s destiny?? Even after all that happened to me, all that she did to me, she is doing to me (of course passive effect), I just like her the way I liked her from the beginning. Even as that hatred for her grew in me, my fondness for her didn’t change a bit. Still the sight of her gives me a ……., you know that weird feeling in yours, when you see someone you like very much??.......
I just cannot stand to miss her. But yeah, its time we should get separated. Or is this what they call the fate or is this my long lost feeling’s destiny??????
8 comments:
emotional stuf...
I understand perfectly that.
Separation is an integral part of life, my friend. It'll only make u stronger.
Might be you were not enough alert about your feelings and the reason behind them, plus you never checked if those feelings are righteous or wrong.
Anyways, destiny/fate is fake talks.
But anyhow, a man tend to keep himself brushed up and alive.
I hope you will cheer up again soon, and it will be really soon, if you start thinking reasonably.
Live for your own self.
@ unpretentious diva
dat was 1 wise advice.. anyways thanks a lot,..
Goodbye. I really know how it feels. Its just a pinch. But that pinch has a longlasting effect. And comes back to haunt you each day. But then isnt life all about moving on. I learned. I hope you will do that too.
Cheers!!
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the heart has strange ways.
but trust me, if u both had to be a couple, u wouldnt have felt the same abt her. its only as long as u dont have something that you yearn for it..its true :)
it happens.. i miss my girlfriend too.. we're kind of in the same boat
(if this is true)
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